Bar Exam

I've gone and done it. And now there's no going back.

Instead of just chatting with a guy a few casual times and then meeting when I still feel completely indifferent about the outcome of the date, I've gone and felt.....something.

Mr. Nice Guy? and I have talked on the phone, texted and emailed like young teenagers for the past 2 weeks, 3 days and 9 or so hours, and now I actually CARE about the outcome of this date we have set for Friday.

Usually I'm more consumed about what I'm going to think of HIM before I walk into that date. But now, all I can think about is what if he thinks I'm this horrible toad? Or what if he is immediately disappointed when he sees me? What if I'm telling a story and in his head he's mapping out where I should invest in plastic surgery? I need to get a grip.

Clearly I've put way too much pressure on this guy, and now if he doesn't see me walk into the bar, immediately rise from his chair and give me a standing ovation, I'm going to be wondering the entire evening what he thinks.

I face the jury in less than 3 days. I can only hope he's it's hung.